again from "Eat, Love, Pray"

Gilbert: 'I seriously believed David was my soul mate.'

Richard from Texas: 'He probably was. Your problem is you don't understand what the word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that's holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you will ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave.'

Gilbert (2006: 149)

From "Eat, Love, Pray"

"Learning how to discipline your speech is a way of preventing your energies from spilling out of you through the rupture of your mouth, exhausting you and filling the world with words, words, words instead of serenity, peace and bliss."

-- Elizabeth Gilbert (p. 190, 2006 ed.)

Tired

I haven't slept through the night since June 16th. I blame the trip, the hospital stays, staying up with the sick kid, and the dogs barking at the fox in the backyard.

I love sleeping! I hated naps as a kid, but I loved the process of going to sleep at night and I still do. I usually read and relax myself to sleep. Right before I fall asleep, I catch myself turning onto my stomach and pulling my right leg up at an angle. My mother always said I must have been that way in the womb and my baby pictures show me on my tummy, right leg angled up, and my left thumb in my mouth.

Nights full of dreams aren't relaxing. I dread those nights. My ideal sleep night is going to sleep and waking up on my own (no alarm clock!), fully rested and ready for the day.

I guess there is too much going on in my life and my brain can't relax enough to get into that deep sleep mode I'm missing right now. A few days this week relaxing on the water and in the sun will hopefully be the recipe for some great sleep!!

I think I'm going to go and sleep now. :)